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I've noticed a major reason why I want to move out of my parents house is because of my e.d.

I want to be able to live by myself. And not half to worry about who's cooking dinner? Are they gonna make me eat? If they don't notice if I don't eat? How will I be able to purge if I do? How am I going to steal the scale? How will I live with myself if I gained will they notice the depressed look on my face?

Paranoid much??

It would just be soo much more easier if I didn't live here. Or with anyone for that matter. Life would be good with bare pantries and nothing in the refrigerator.

I was so strong before recovery. But I think it was because I was still in school and was able to use the excuse that I ate a lot at school and wasn't hungry.

I guess I should have never dropped out then huh?

That's another story I could rag on and on about but for some other day...

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