Are you concerned

I don't know what it is these days every time my dad looks at me it just feels like he's judging me somehow. I mean I've been eating and shit I might fast sometimes. I'm trying to cut out my purging till I go to the dentist and fix up my teeth.

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Backbones

 Watch "Thinspiration #16 - Backbones" on YouTube 

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Sore

Ohhh yes. The sore is the best just like the empty feeling is good.

I'm excited to go to the gym tomorrow keeps me sane. But so far for today I had a protein bar and did some stretches onto yoga.

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Debate

I can't tell if hannie Dropkick is skinny or fat. Its driving me nuts like one pic she looks fat then she looks skinny then she looks well built. Damnalang.

Its like is she short and tiny like me so you can't tell if your a oompa loompa or not????

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Thin me!

 Watch "Pretty Thin Girls" on YouTube 

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Love your bones!!!

 Watch "Thinspiration Collarbones Arms Upbeat" on YouTube 

Not really sure if there are any focus exercises that deal with collar bones or back bones but ill take a peak.

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Early morning

Well well!!! A new day a new beginning to a new week!!! I was thinking about what we should focus on this week. So drum roll if you please..........BACK BONES AND COLLAR BONES!!!!!!!!!!

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Early morning

Well well!!! A new day a new beginning to a new week!!! I was thinking about what we should focus on this week. So drum roll if you please..........BACK BONES AND COLLAR BONES!!!!!!!!!!

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Love my fashion and makeup

 Watch "Heavy Candy eyes tutorial by Delyria" on YouTube 

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Work it abs

 Watch "Great Abs Obliques Core Exercise Workout For Small V Shaped Waist & Flat Stomach" on YouTube 

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Dont wake me up!!!

Ahaha my mom woke me up early this Morning to take her to the doctors. Bleh I dunno mind. As long as I get to scare the normal people with my high minded fashion sense. Well belly time again today gotta take a look at what's out there for you folks

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Tummy tummy!!!

 Watch "Thinspiration #15 - Stomachs" on YouTube 

Well I had some fun today shopping for athletic clothing so I don't look like a hobo in the gym. I had a protein bar. So I dunno Bleh

But anyways here is a tummy thinspo.

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Binged

I didn't mean to but we have family over. And its hard to refuse Your favorite aunt with a offer of doughnuts. Its just one of those things or one of those persons that you don't want to make upset. I love her and my uncle to much to see them say or feel offense that I didn't like what they worked hard to give to us as a gift.

But on a fashion note I'm working on getting my hair completely white. Then hoping to put in a silver tint in later. I'm happy about that.

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Cant go to the gym.

I'm so bummed that I can't go to the gym. We had a flashflood and a storm here. So the roads were closed.

And when me and my mom left a second time to see if we could make it. We witnessed a car accident. Stupid kids must have been flying they flipped there car. They said the boy who was driving had a seizure. But when we saw them to try and help they looked like they were drunk. Then they go and run away leave the car in the middle of the high way. Me and my mom had to call the cops and wait cuz its pouring rain and those kids just left. We ended up just going home. Bleh. Bleh

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Company

Damn. I wanted to do some stretches today. But we have company over. I'd go into my room but I dunno if I trust this Guy in my house yet. He's new.

Blehhhhh but I needed to rest anyways.

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Best!!

 Watch "THINSPO!" on YouTube 

So far this to me is the best thinspo so far I am in love with it

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Sore as hell

Well another day I'm so fucking sore. But not sore enough gotta do some stretches and crunches I want that flat belly. I'm still on a fast and I need to just keep going hot damn.

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Pilates

 Watch "Pilates Abs Crunch: How to Get Toned Abs and a Flat Stomach" on YouTube 

Whoo social joined the local gym. I pent a good hour on the little bike thing. I was a little shy to go looking around the gym just because I felt like a fat umpa lumpa walking around but what evers. I think I found a few people to go to the gym with tho which makes me happy

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Omg gym

Omg gym membership is so exspensive. But that's okay. It might be worth it in the end. I need to tone up and slim down.

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Indie

 Watch "Artsy, indie Thinspo 2011" on YouTube 

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A good way to start the day

 Watch "NEWEST THINSPO 2011 Delicious" on YouTube 

Well I was just getting ready to go jogging so I start off with some stretches and thinspo to keep my spirits up. Being that I didn't eat I'm just gonna take it slow. And start as soon as the sun comes up. Can't wait to getcout and put a move on in Paradise.

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Jogging

I can't wait to go jogging tomorrow and walking. I'm just worried about fainting but I'm going to try and take it slow. Mostly walking I think ill do and check out the gym.

I'm still liquid fasting which I half to do. I got so fat trying to do that damned thing. I'm such a fucking fatass

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Belly belly belllyyy

 Watch "Bonnie's Pilates Workout Routine - Belly" on YouTube 

Yes work it with Pilates

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Tummy yummy

 Watch "Tummy Thinspo" on YouTube 

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Fasting again

I'm planning on fasting again. This time for a month. I'm going to try and up my cardio workout while doing this. Like going to the gym walking and jogging more. I want to look like that soo bad!!! My tummy Just is not flat enough! Or smooth enough

Hunger hurts but starving works

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Gothhhhh

 Watch "Cienwen Noor" on YouTube 

Goths your my naughty side. Heehee

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Yoga

 Watch "YOGA FOR WEIGHT LOSS" on YouTube 

Kay guys like I said if you can't do it please don't.

Yoga is really really good. Think lean and sexy instead of bulky

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Very fun!!

 Watch "Sexy Body Exercise Video!" on YouTube 

Okay this looks pretty fun once you get past all the talking.

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Very nice work it

 Watch "5 Minute Abs Workout at Home! Fast & Simple for Flat Sexy Abs - Model Exercise" on YouTube now This is what I'm talking about fashion and working out. I wish I could ware heels to the gym.

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Well a new week

Hello fellow followers today is the beginning of a new week andcwhile I'm here staring at myself in my bikini looking how fat and gross I am. I decided this week will be.......

TUMMY AND UPPER BODY!!!!!!!!!!!

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Just to get ready

 Watch "Upbeat Thinspo" on YouTube 

I'm still debating what should be done for next weeks focus

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Hey

Another day another worry

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Gothhhhhhh

 Watch "Goth Girls - Emilie Autumn, RazorCandi, Adora BatBrat" on YouTube 

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Razorcandi!!!

 Watch "Razor Candi" on YouTube 

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moorrreeee

 Watch "018 TRX Ballet Stretches.MOV" on YouTube 

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Inverted hamstring

Stand with your arms at your sides knees slightly bent lift your right leg behind you bend to lower your torso until its parallel to the ground and raise your arms out to the sides until they're in line with your shoulders palm down. Return to the start. That's one Rep do 10 then repeat the opposite side.

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Did not sleep

Damn again I did not sleep and I'm up and about its 4a.m. gotta go gotta go. No time to weigh no time just gotta go and I'm so damned tired. I gotta wake my ass up to drive. No coffee shops are open here yet.

But I weighed yesterday after I ate all that birthday food for me mom and all that water I drank. I was up two pounds. I'm actually going to try and fast today.

I'm hoping that maybe I can get someone else to drive I'm dead thrashed. I can't concentrate at all. Ill end up...knock on wood I'm Not going to say It.

Lets just hope I'm down or the same weight and o can keep a lid on it today.

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Ate.

So I ate some today was my mamas birthday so I made a nice healthy dinner for us.

I had some very very small amount but I was snacking on croutons all day so I feel really guilty at the moment.

But tomorrow I'm going to the grandparents house which means I gotta watch my step.

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Sleep with me!!

I haven't been able to sleep to good for the past week or two. I had insomnia before. But that's Because I was up all night worrying about a retarded asshole.

Now I'm just up worrying about my weight and my life. I don't know how else to overcome this. Its like trying to break down a concrete wall with your bare fists.. it can be done just how to do it.

It could also be because I don't feel safe. I mean like comfort zone safe. I'm so use to having someone next me. Or even a whole shit load of pillows anything to make me feel not so alone.

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Flexspiration!

 Watch "My Flexpiration" on YouTube 

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Keep it upgrade

 Watch "018 TRX Ballet Stretches.MOV" on YouTube 

Another stretch. Want nice lean legs ballet is the best for you but remember if you can't do it don't.

Another tip from meh: I use saint Ives cellulite gel and firming skin lotion on my legs twice a day.

This really helps improove the look and smoothes out your legs. Goes for about 5-10$ at your local market store. Very good. But its one of those things you gotta keep up on no cheating guys.

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Do it ballet!!!

 Watch "018 PILATES Ballet Stretches on Barrel.MOV" on YouTube 

I'm adoring this no talk streight to the point

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Probably double posted this

 Watch "Inner Thighs Workout Exercises : Figure Eights for Inner Thigh Workouts" on YouTube 

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Legs

 Watch "Thinspo- 'Lovely Legs' (Mostly Real Girl)" on YouTube 

So I'm trying to really get back into my dancer flexibility. So lovely legs to give us hope

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Morning time.

Eh. So I decided to go back to Ana. I can't handle the guilt anymore. So I'm restricting to 50cals today.

I really just can't handle it. I'm about to go out of my forking mind over here

I can't wait to do my ballet stretches later on today. You think I want my legs looking Like that? I feel like my legs are as big as that though. So today is the beginning of what ever it was I'm restarting.

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Fell back on my ways

I couldn't handle it all the food the calories were just killing me.

So I purged up everything I ate today. I just can't give it up. I am pro Ana pro mia I just can't be normal I want to be the old me so bad. Food is not going to get me there I half to keep up. I half to stay strong. Hunger hurts but starving works and I know that so well. Why I even attempted betraying myself for missery.  I just don't know.

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Moe ballet exercises

 Watch "Ballet Exercises at Home" on YouTube 

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Ahaha

 Watch "Leg Thigh Thinspiration: "Just hold on a little more"" on YouTube 

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Sorry kittens

Sorry guys my uploader to YouTube is down for a bit but ill keep looking to see if they fix the broken link laters.

So I'm the same weight and its starting to freak me out. I'm really thinking about going back to Ana cuz she works and I Love her and I dunno. Eating stresses me out so much I'm like starting to get back into weighing myself every five minutes.

But I'm doing ballet stretches and its really keeping me focused and not over freaking out.

I really want to stop what I'm doing and go back to Ana but I'm so confused my body is hurting so bad.

Loosening bone mass and now being 5"0 instead of 5"2 freaked me out.

I'm trying. I just am soo confused.  FUCK!

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Ballet stretches

 Watch "Beginning Ballet Steps : How to Do Ballet Stretches" on YouTube 

I'm really starting to get into the whole ballet thing. Just simply Because I have a bad back and the stretches and posture is so streight it really helps a whole bunch for me.

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Work the thighs

Just another thigh work out for all you peeps remember to always take caution when your working out if you can't do it then don't.

And If I upload the same exercise sorry! Its just Because I wasn't paying attention

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