Bitch

Ugh I'm Just in a awful bitch mode sense this morning. God damnit. I really don't mean to be but I am. Went walking around the hotels to calm my ass down but I think all it did was just make me more pissed.

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Hanny plink

 Watch "Hanny Plink and Emilia Blush" on YouTube 

I love hanny plink so I decided to post something something. 

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Suckered in fawk

Crap. I hate getting suckered in to do stuff. Today was suppose to be my day at the gym instead I get suckered in to doing work at my moms hotel that I wont even get paid for.

I mean I have and had the option of saying no. But my mom gave me the whole shpeal about how there's no one in sales and they need help blah blah blah. I mean I'm tight with money. My dad is taking all my checks and I want a job desperately its Just I have my own bills to pay to. Think the gym owner is gonna give me a membership free for my good looks and charm. NO. and my mom was all like are you mad???

Hello what the hell does she think. I didn't answer her tho. And this Sunday is my dads birthday so she already bugged me to do whatever the hell it is he wants to do.

Grr and my dad was all like have I ever denied you anything. I wanted to say 'yeah how bout a life happiness and joy' 

So as you can imagine I'm in a pissed off mood.

Parents tell me you better make use of all that money were paying for to go to the gym. Which is my money! Then when I want to make use for it I can't fucking shit shit shit shit shit shit shit.

I'm gonna have one or my spazzy twitching meltdowns God fucking damnit. Thank God there is a bathroom and I can cool off in!!!!

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Curb your appetite

So after dinner I went out into my woods for a quick smoke. I don't want to over eat or freak out over the fact that I did eat. So methal is my choice. At least I get to work my ass off at the GM. I lost two poounds but still need to loose the other three That I gained when I was trying to be HEALTHY pshhh shit.

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Staying activie

Staying active is kinda hard but is it really? I went for a little walk and had a cig while I was down there. Starting to smoke again helps me. Its my anti depressent.

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Gained

I know it was a late weigh but I just couldn't help myself. I feel like l....failed but didn't fail I'm trying to stay positive but ugh.

I was so much more lower. Just so much more. I'm trying a new diet pill. Ugh why I keep trying these things I don't know when starving works just fine on its own.

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Ugh yes morning

Yay new day new start Totally binged yesterday. I have my girlie issue of the month crap. But I get to work my fatass off at the gym so its all good. Damn its hard looking for back exercises. But lets start the day off with a lovely pic of miryam sater.

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