Water fast

So I told my mom that I was water fasting tomorrow. I gave her the excuse that all the diet sodas and juice I've been drinking has been making me feel weird. Like kidneys hurting or something.

She baught it. I don't think my dad did tho. He kind of snorted at the fact. But he wont say anything because mom said it was okay.

Hahahaha revenge is sweet from yesterday.

So wish me luck. I don't feel pressured out to eat tomorrow now.

Where supose to go out and get a new microwave oven and some other household stuff tomorrow.

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Haha bite me.

Lol so today I was harassed on MySpace for being a fake. Well got me all mad so I ate a bit.

But my proof pic prooved yeah wrong. Lol and he apologized so I'm all happy happy happy about that

Not so much that I ate but still the same weight if I'm lucky ill be down tomorrow. But I dunno what ever. I'm still going strong at least it wasn't twenty pounds. I'm so determined right now!

Heather heather is a sexy bitch. I wish I could be just like her. My scenespo. <3

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I feel like such a fatass. My mom is flipping thru a magazine gosh I'm so fat compared to those models.

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Prety good vid

 Here's a cool YouTube video 

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I feel like shit

For some reason I just feel like shit. I get to go out of the house but still shitty. Get to spend money but still shitty. Fml.

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Up.

Even with all my efforts I'm up a pound but I get to fast and shop today.

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Something is up.

Well I was doing so great until. My dad said something like this:

"I've been noticing your loosing weight. Your not doing anything that will put you back in the hospital are you?"

It was just the way he said it and the sound in his voice.

And out of pure reaction and fear I grabbed some chocolates and started eating. My Ana demons freaking out. But I just knew he knows something is up.

Then he started offering me chips. I didn't want to refuse. (But I sure wanted to cry right in frontcof him. While he watched me eat and offered more)

I was about to escape and purge when he said:

"Uh-uh stay in the living room."

Me:"I need to get my phone charger." Excuse

"No"

So right about there I'm texting everyone and freaking out.

But I couldn't believe it, it was like he knew I was going to purge and was stopping me by trapping me with time. (Smart bastard)

So I freaked out downed three diet pills and started a massive cardio work out.

I started at 5:42p.m. non stop jumping jacks sqwats crunches stretches running in place push ups leg lifts and ended at about 8:26 p.m.

It was a great work out. I drank water and watered down juice for the sugars.

I just hope I'm still at my low weight tomorrow.

I'm dead scared.

But I maybe a sacrifice today will keep the eyes off me tomorrow and for days to come.

I'm on the ultimate fast again tomorrow.

Wish me luck!

Pro-ana.

Stay strong. Move on!!!!

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